'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'

Wow. This was a needed reminder! Feeling kind of blah lately. I am in my fourth week now (1/4 of the way to the end of chemo!) for my twelve treatments. Side effects specifically are minimal but overall, I just don't feel like myself. Very tired, not feeling like eating sometimes, etc. Looking at the positive side of things, my hair is starting to grow back! I look like a chia pet!





Tomorrow will be the DIG PINK volleyball match! Looking forward to feeling the overwhelming love and support that comes from an event such as this. Should be a great night of volleyball and lots of money donated to a great cause!





Please continue to pray for strength and healing. Please include those I have mentioned in previous postings: Erin, especially as she begins her journey. I met a nice young lady at a restaurante who is scared to visit her mom who has breast cancer because she is going to lose her hair. Touched my heart! She and her mom could use prayers! God's grace!

Thanks to all of you still by my side! I am close to being half way through this journey and I appreciate so much all of you who are with me the entire way!

Celebrity status!

Wow! I feel like a celebrity this month! A whole month dedicated to breast cancer awareness! There are cakes at grocery store in the shape of ribbons, bagels at Panera bread ribbon shaped, and pink stuff everywhere! I'm gracious for the focus as it leads many more towards early detection, better treatment and hopefully a cure!

In addition to all the "Stuff", On demand TV has a Pink Ribbon section where they feature stories, documentaries and celebrities fighting the disease. "Why I Wore Red Lipstick" was an awesome, real, funny movie that addresses all the issues of having breast cancer. Loved it!

I, personally continue to fight hard with the disease! Tomorrow I will struggle through my cold to receive my second of twelve treatments. So far, I feel good (Besides my cold) and not too exhausted. I have decided, though with the help of Pam Ashe (Retired Eagle) to take the Fridays following treatment to rest and get strong for the following week of school. My blessings just keep coming! It's so reassuring to know that even though I am feeling well, God continues to bless me. So undeserving!

Thank you for all of your positive thoughts and prayers. Please pray for my cancer friend, Erin who is beginning the fight of her life! Pray also for all of those who need grace and strength to get through another day of their fight!

Back Again!

Well, it's been a nice four weeks off from treatment! I was starting to feel somewhat normal again, then it was time to start again. Yesterday, October 1st, I started my second phase of chemo therapy drugs. This time is suppose to be a little less harsh on my body. Taxel only takes about an hour and 1/2 to administer and I don't have to get a neulasta (Immunity shot) the day after treatment. That in itself is a blessing! Those injections were what was making me sick during the first phase. Once again, I am pleasantly surprised at the lack of side effects from the treatment. I am very tired and have a metalic taste in my mouth but that's the extent! Yeah! Answered prayers! Thank you for all of your text messages and support. You all continue to keep my spirits up and a smile on my face!

REMINDER: The DIG PINK volleyball match to support breast cancer is COMING SOON! It is October 21st! 7:00pm at South Kitsap High School in Port Orchard. The T-shirts are here now and they are 5.00! The T-shirt gets you into the match! It will be a fun night and a great fundraiser! See you there!

Please continue to pray for my friend, Erin who is beginning her journey with breast cancer. She is facing a much more difficult path than I am traveling. Pray for strength, wisdom and encouragment.

What a Week!

Tuesday, I went back to school! Taught the rest of the week. Each day got easier as far as energy levels, swelling and pain in my legs, and overall feeling. It has been good to be back with my kids! At this time I plan to teach every day in September except for the couple days following the trip to Eastern to take my baby to college! Yes, COLLEGE! Hopefully all these days I have cried already will make next weekend easier.

Today I was able to visit with my friend, Janice, who's courageous fight against lung cancer is so inspiring to all. We spent time comparing our journeys and sharing bald head stories. Love it! Janice is having surgery Monday. Please keep your prayers going that everything will go smoothly and without complications, but mostly for Janice's strength and recovery.

In addition, a colleague of mine has a niece, Erin who at only 29 has breast cancer that is quickly invading her. Pray, Pray, Pray! God's grace is so powerful!

Starting chemo again October 1st.

DON'T FORGET!
October 21st is the breast cancer volleyball match at South Kitsap High School. 5.00 buys your Dig Pink T-shirt and entrance to the match and the proceeds benefit the Sideout foundation.

Thank you to all of you who continue to support me through your emails, comments, text messages, cards and especially the meals! You all ROCK!

Celebrate Good Times, Celebrate!

Yesterday was the last Adriamycin/Cytoxin treatment and the end to my first phase of chemo therapy!!!!!! Yahoo! It went well and I feel pretty good today. Can't believe I have completed the toughest part! And the other cause for celebration, I am done for four weeks! No poking, no dripping, no shot, nothing until October 1st! yahoo!

Side effects today are minimal! Once again, divine intervention has graced me with energy, no nausea, limited anxiety, and I am still awake after no nap!!!!! Thank you for all you prayers! They are answered every day! Now that I am off for a while, it's back to exercising in the pool, physical therapy, and back to work! I will be working the first two weeks, starting on the 8th and working through the 18th. Then we will take BT and cousin Brandon to college at Eastern! WOW! Can't believe it! From there, it is VACATION and rest for me for the next 8 school days. My very good friend, Angela will be available to provide my students with what the need and be able to continue teaching my curriculum. She is a veteran by now with my students! I will be back to work full time starting October 1st as my second round of chemo is suppose to be less on my body and less on the side effects. My treatments will be after school. Blessed again!

Another reason to celebrate!~

Live the Fed Way, Family Everyday! This is our new moto at my High School this year. We are big into the diversity that makes up our family! Within that family, we have clubs and activities along with sports. One of the clubs, made up of all male staff members, is the "Bald Eagle club" Well, I was inducted today as the first ever female bald Eagle! It was overwhelming and it moved me to tears to witness the support of my fellow staff as well as the show of support from the students. WOW! It was quite an honor! I work at the best High School on the planet. Thank you, Andy Cameron!

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!!!! Your support is amazing, your prayers answered, and your love and friendship incredibly supportive! Thank you!

Happy Birthday Cindy!

Somewhat difficult today!

WOW! I received so much help yesterday to set up my classroom for the 2009/2010 year! Sister, Israel, Brittany, and my assistant, Nasreen all worked so hard we were finished in less than four hours! Thank you all of you! The bonus was the dinner we were able to enjoy at Nareen's burger place! Thank you Nasreen and family, especially Matthew!

The help was so needed as it was day 8 after my Neulasta shot (Builds white blood cells) and I usually run a fever, am exhausted and don't feel very well. Fever ended up being low and I am not in the hospital as of today. Blessed again!

"The strength of the heart comes from the soundness of Faith!" Brittany made a card for me with this saying and I am finding myself reading it over and over today especially! Some recent family events as well as how crappy I feel today, have dampened my spirits a little. Fever is still low enough (Thank goodness), but I am battling a sore throat, a little bit of nausea, and I have zip for energy! Frustrated because I have lots to do on the computer for school and don't want to do a thing! Here's the beauty of the whole situation, I, me, myself and I, get to decide how I am going to react or feel about my crappiness! So, I will do my best today and will update you in the next few days! You are all amazing and I appreciate you all every minute of my days! Thank you!

Thank you Brother Josh for coming to visit me today. It has been awhile and it was good to see you and share some good conversation.
Reminder:

For especially those new to my bloggin.... October is upon us and I want to remind you of the "Dig Pink" volleyball match on October 21st (Wednesday night) at 7:00pm over at South Kitsap High School in Port Orchard. Cost is only $5.00 for a cool T-shirt and entrance to the high school match. There will also be a silent auction with autographed pink stuff. Proceeds support the Sideout Foundation, a breast cancer foundation connected to volleyball.

I continue to be blessed and amazed!

It's been six days since treatment number three! Because I apparently have less healthy cells than when I started this process, I get apprehensive and brace myself for the worst of the side effects! Much to my amazment and surprise, my side effects are less than the previous treatment! I am able to eat normally, sleep well, and am just slightly tired, especially at the end of a busy day! "Thank you, Jesus, for my continued strength!"

In addition, to feeling okay, I continue to experience the benefits of my chemo baldness! I don't have to worry about getting my hair wet when I brush my teeth or wash my face! Getting ready to walk out the door, now takes me 1/2 the time it used to take! My naturally curly hair, on a good hair day does not freak out and become a Simba look alike when it rains! And, I have saved so much money because I am not buying mousse, shampoo, conditioner and leave-in! Can you imagine?! My head, by the way is the only place where I am bald! Let me tell you how excited I am to still have my eyelashes and eyebrows! "Thank you again, Jesus, for blessing me!"

What's next?????
I will have the last of my first phase of treatments on Thursday, September 3rd. Then, I will have four weeks off (The month of September) and will start phase two which is every week for twelve weeks! My famous last words, "BRING IT!" Thank you, all of you, friends, co-workers, family, all of you, for your continued support! Please continue to pray for me and my family!

Prayers answered again!

Following treatment yesterday, I was not feeling too well. Very nauseous, NO appetite and exhausted. TODAY, I have felt great.... No upset tummy and ate well! Ate three meals! YEAH!!!!! Spent a couple hours out and about and don't feel any more tired than usual. Had an awesome lunch with friend, Angela at Panera. Have enjoyed spending the day with friends! Please continue to pray for strength, focus of my chemo brain, and of course healing! GOD DOES ANSWER PRAYERS!

Over the past two months, I have enjoyed meeting fellow breast cancer survivors that have been a tremendous support and source of information as well as resources.

"We know that suffering produces perserverance..."

...perserverance, character, and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us!" Romans 5:4 I chose this verse to convey my response to my physcial, emotional, and mental condition. I completed my third round of chemo therapy today. One more treatment (Sept. 3) completes the first phase. The side effects I am experiencing are increasing in severity with each treatment. In addition, the war within my body continues to terorize my spirit! There are required medications (a lot of them) that are given to minimize side effects from the chemo alone. Then there are medications that are prescribed infection or every day ailments like headaches, body aches and other common issues I experience simply because I don't have normal blood while undergoing Chemotherapy. They too, bring their own side effects! This battle attacks me physically which in turn temporaily taints my character and leaves me with my hands in the air wondering how I am suppose to have hope...

BUT, as usual, I preservere because that alone lifts my character, makes me better, and leads me closer to hope! I CAN ONLY PRESERVERE WITH Divine intervention and prayer, Friends, and family that continue to support me through cards in the mail, text messages, emails, gifts, visits to the hospital, and offers to bring meals. Friend, Colleen brought lavendar spray, a heat and cold pack, beautiful lucky plants, and yummy brownies! Grandma Bev bought me a beautiful lady statue with pink ribbons all over her dress. Angela visited me during Chemo with little Ellie, who was way more interested in building a relationship with my mom rather than taking time to say Hi to me! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!

My mom, my rock, is always with me despite making sure her own health is taken care of. She is so unselfishly by my side 24/7! I love you mom! Dad, Brittany, nurse Taylor and sister, have continually supported me with love, meals, transportation, finances, wiping of tears, and attending appointments. I Love you all so much!

Remember: in all you do today, you cannot personally change any person or any circumstance, BUT I(YOU) can change how you feel, think, and act towards that person or circumstances! What a blessing that we have that opportuntiy!

New Day

Well here I am again, 12:30AM and just getting around to blogging. It has been a fairly long day, but a pretty good day for Teri. Although the fever has been somewhat inconsistent...up and down throughout the day...her spirits have been good. She was moved downstairs this morning to ironically enough the same room that she was in after surgery. She was excited to see that many of the same nurses who cared for her and joked with her were still around.

She wanted me to give special thanks to visitors she had today...Jean T. who brought her some wonderful chocolates and good conversation, Sandy W. with her bright smile and flowers (complete with M&M adornments), Robyn with a "breast cancer" box of goodies, and Carol with a lovely willow tree girl labeled "courage" and last but not least Jenny W. who brought balloons and some good reading material.

Dad, Mom and I have been with Teri throughout her day; friends Cindy and TJ had to take on the Yankees and Safeco field. We passed the time with a couple games of cribbage and of course discussion to solve all of the world's problems. lol!

Dr. K will be in to see Teri in the morning and of course make a decision regarding her discharge. It sounds like the deciding factor will be managing that fever. We have heard Saturday as a possiblity, but we have also heard looks more like Sunday...poor thing just wants to go home and take her bath!

Thanks for continued love and support and please remember the rules! No visitors who are sick or even feeling a little under the weather! Love to all!

Cancer SUCKS!

Sister here reporting on the latest events in the journey...Teri went to work at Safeco on Sunday and Monday and then tried to work again on Tuesday. Keep in mind that she had her second Chemo treatment and a blood transfusion on Thursday and Friday before. At about 8:30, we sent Teri home from Safeco whereas she blazed a fever and pretty much crashed physically. She ended up calling the doctor made it through the night and was instructed to see her oncologist the next morning (today Aug. 13).

Upon drawing blood, and listening to Teri's lungs, it was determined that her Red blood cell count was too low, she still had a fever and she would be admitted to St. Francis. So myself, Mom, Dad and Joey treked on over to Fed Way and got her set up at the hospital. Needless to say, she is very irritated with having to be admitted much less having to stay until Saturday at the earliest. BUT, we should be thankful that Dr. K is treating this as a possible infection situation and is taking NO chances. Because of Chemo treatments, Teri is very suseptible to infection.

Again she appreciates all of your support, thoughts, prayers, cards, notes etc. She can have visitors of course but please...no one with colds, flu, or just not feeling well...we need to be sterile and cautious!

Thanks ahead for everything! Teri sends her love!
Sister

Teresa Tuttle Medical Fund

The Teresa Tuttle Medical Fund has finally arrived! Please get the word out to anyone who would like to make a donation to help offset Teri's medical related expenses.
A contribution can be made at any US Bank to the "Teresa Tuttle Medical Fund." If you are not near a US Bank, you can send a check to:

TTMF
c/o Merianne Jordan
2429 SW 326th St
Federal Way, WA 98023

Include your email address with your check and I will send you confirmation that your check was received and deposited.

If you have any questions about the fund or making a contribution, please call me at
253-686-8033

Thanks, Merianne

God continues to bless me!

Here we are three days following my second treatment of Chemo therapy and a five hour blood transfusion to replenish my red cells and I feel great! Once again, no real side effects other than the low energy. I even made it through my 25th class reunion last night! It was great to see friends that we only see once every five years or so. A good time was had by all and better yet, my hair held up! yeah!

This morning, I am losing my hair! The clumps are coming out faster and thicker. Not sure what the plan is going to be due to the fact that I am returning to work at safeco for a couple of hours today to see if I can handle it! Wear my hat I suppose and pray that it holds whatever I have left! Will definitely go for the clean shave tonight or tomorrow am! The bible says, "God knows every hair on our heads." He will have to be extra busy with me because he will have to know every new hair on my head too! Again, God continues to bless me!

Please continue to pray for my emotional and physical strength. The hair is temporary but effects me psychologically. I also need the physical strength to try and work a little during this 10 game homestand at the safe! Thank you all my friends, family and followers! Without you, I am lost!

Drip Drip Drip

Well, here I am receiving my first pint of red stuff! Nothing hurts, the nurses are wonderful and very personable! I love that! (Another blessing) Sister, nurse Tami is here with me and nurse Taylor will be here later! Total time for the transfusion will be 6 hours so I am going to try and get some planning done for school! Can you believe it is here already.... Can't wait to see the kids and my friends!

No real side effects from the second chemo yesterday. Feel a little woozy but no vomiting. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all of your support through your comments on my blog, your consistent "Im thinking of you!" text messages, phone calls, and cards! I love you all so much!

Hopefully, if I continue to feel better, I am going to work a few hours at Safeco starting Sunday! I miss my friends and those Mariners! I have been gone so long over half the boys are new!

Until this weekend, love and thanks to all!

2nd one DOWN!

Received the 2nd treatment of the first phase today, and seem to be doing okay...Sister, TJ and Britt were with me and friend, Kathy came by to visit. Treatment itself was uneventful, and I haven't even taken a nap yet. I also got some news that was a little bit unsettling; as I went in for my CBC (blood count test), the doctor discovered that I was extrememly anemic. The chemo drugs are tough on the healthy cells, and are killing the red blood cells, so I have to go in and receive 2 pints of blood on Friday. Hopefully the transfusion will help and even improve the shortness of breath problem I have been experiencing.

The pictures you all see here with this blog are the result of going to see Tina for a total shave! Over the course of the past 2 days, I have lost little bits of hair, so I went to see Tina and told her to just shave it off. Welll as she grabbed a handful and cut it off, I decided that I liked this short cut, so Tina shaped it up really nice (she didn't think it was falling out much at all)and here I am with short hair! Honestly, I can't remember last time I had short hair.

REMINDER... October 21st is not far away!

Just another word regarding the "Sideout Foundation." This is a breast cancer organization offiliated with Volleyball and they are hosting a "Dig Pink" match at South Kitsap High School on Wednesday, October 21st at 7:00pm. A $5.00 donation buys you a cool pink T-shirt as well as your admission into the High School match where the SK Wolves will battle the Central Kitsap Tigers! There will also be a silent auction for additional fund raising. You should see the items collected so far! Please consider joing us that evening for a good cause, some great HS volleyball, fun and family and I will get to see your faces! Thank you in advance!

"God is Good, All the Time!"

Okay, so it's been awhile since we talked last! Sorry and Happy both that there has been nothing to report. Sorry, because all of you AWESOME blogger fans out there keep seeing the same post everytime you log on! Happy because life is so full of blessings and new days that I am feeling great! Since my first treatment, July 23rd, I have felt stronger and less "Chemo-effected as each day comes. The only side effect that continues to slow me is my low energy. But, please observe, it is after midnight and it is my second wind (I often get it at bed time) that is providing me the fuel to update! In addition, I eat when I feel good enough to eat so a little snack is adding to the mix! (Sister makes great potato salad, not to mention Rose Marie's delivered painted sugar cookies!) MMM!

This past weekend, Sister, Mom (My traveling nurses) and I took the kids, Brittany, Brandon, and Jessica over to Cheney to go through their "First Step" orientation and pre-registration process at Eastern Washington University! They completed all the necessary steps to start classes on the 23rd of September! Yep it's official, they are entering college and we are old!

Not knowing ahead of time how I would handle the 6 hour car ride, we headed out on Wednesday afternoon in order to be at Eastern on Friday morning at 8. We stopped in Ellensburg to visit overnight with a past college professor, Carol Carrothers and her husband Dave and sons Ryan, Remington, and Choco! They provided us an Awesome dinner, company, comfy room and board, and breakfast to send us on our way. Thanks guys! We were in Spokane by about 2:00 or so. (Stopped quite a bit because we could!) Mom and I were more than ready to get out of the car and rest the sitters but I handled the trek with very little disruption to my insides! Yes!

After spending a busy, very hot day at Eastern, we headed back to the hotel. Mom ended up crashing very early after not eating dinner because of flu like symptoms and a slight fever that we nursed through out the evening. She was a little better for the ride home but still is not recovered. I, too ran a slight fever (Nothing to bring me a fast ride to the E room!), but was fine on Saturday. Thinking it's just a bad case of dehydration since it was over 100 degrees for the two days we were in Spokane. None the less, we made it home, using most of Saturday with many stops! (Still love that Rossows U-tote Em in Eburg!) My faith, strength and patience were slightly tested with my nurse down :) She continually works so hard to care for me that when I was doing better and she was able to relax even a little, she got broad sided by a bug! Halleluja for back up nurses! Love you all!

Finally, I am to the part you are all searching for... I STILL HAVE ALL OF MY HAIR! Regularly, I tug at it to make sure and my evenings with my eyes closed are occupied by thoughts and dreams related to my hair, but it is all still there! With God's grace, and my stubborness, I will still have hair in December! (If God has other plans, it will be okay because I will join my fellow "Bald Eagles" at FW.... hopefully they don't mind girls in their group!

Next up... Round two! Chemo 2 will be August 6th. I have to go in on Wednesday prior for a CBC (Complete blood Count) to make sure my whites and reds are cooperating in order to have treatment. Then I will go in for my three hour treatment on Thursday. (Love nurse Monica!). Friday, I will be back in for the Neulasta shot which is an injection in my belly to boost my white blood cells. I just pretend on my own Island and get to "Win Immunity" every week! So, on your knees, bow your heads, raise your hands, cross your fingers, and rally the troops... I am depending on your support once again! Please and Thank you! My famous words, "Bring It!" Love to All!

First One DOWN!

Thursday, 7/23 was my first round of Chemotherapy. Went in, had several medications including the Adri and Cytoxin pushed through the port in my chest, got a bandaid, and off we went. Of course, I wasn't feeling any severe side effects immediately following. In fact we had a bite to eat just down the hill from my apartment and sister and I walked home. (She is great for a personal trainer) The evening was a little tougher; I started to feel extremely exhausted, nauscious, and over-emotional. Friday morning, I reported back to the clinic for my immunity injection and a visit with Dr. Kasubhai. He was pleased with my progress over the first twenty four hours.

My toughest side effect has been exhaustion, but each day, I have felt better. Able to eat a little more at a time and feeling less nauscious. I have a difficult time in the evening around 7:00 where I am restless, exhausted and again, emotional. I take my evening med, take a bath curl up in bed, and usually fall asleep quickly. Once asleep, I am good til morning! Yeah!!!!

Came over to mom's in PO last night and woke up this am feeling pretty good! Was able to eat breakfast and enjoy a beautiful, sunny morning over looking the bay!

Heading to Spokane midweek to take the kids to their "First-step" check in day at Eastern! Wow, I can't believe they are all grown up now! Anyway, will be there through the weekend. Please pray for strength!

Next treatment will be August 6th! Will update you all soon! Thanks for your continued comments, cards, love, and support... You all make it so much easier! Love to all!

APPREHENSION!!!

Well this is the best way I can describe how sister must be feeling on the eve of the first Chemo treatment...she has an idea of what will actually happen in terms of the toxic drugs that will be put into her body tomorrow, and somewhat of an idea of the side effects BUT doesn't know when things will actually happen. And of course the medical personnel have to give you the bad info with the good which only makes you worry some more.

We had a wonderful day today at American Lake on the boat with friend Jo, her daughter Randi, Teri, Britt, and myself. Last big "sun" day before the Chemo begins. It was a good time for Teri just to relax and laugh which we did a lot of! She had a flag and a horn! Thanks, Jo!

On Tuesday, I took Teri to see Carla (my curly hair specialist stylist), and she gave Sister a beautiful short cut...left it curly at first, then we felt the need to see it straightened which we did at 2:00 this AM! (thank God for summer). Still not sure how we will handle the hair-do in a couple of weeks, but for now the do is adorable, don't ya think?

Well, It is getting late, and although I am worried about how Sister is possibly trying to get some rest, I must also try and rest. I along with Mom and Dad will be with Teri tomorrow as she begins her treatment which is supposed to last about 3 hours (starts at 9:30). Thoughts and prayers (as always) are much appreciated and welcomed. Teri depends upon them daily!

The Next Step...

We are home from the lake! What beautiful weather we had and it was nice to get away. Mom and Dad came up for the day on Wednesday and brought a nice spaghetti dinner. College friend, Jo and her girl Randi joined us as well. Thursday, we had my Aunt Judy, cousin Becky and three of my little cousins. They, too brought lots of food, fun, and cheer!

Next week, Thursday, I will begin Chemotherapy! It is divided into two phases. The first phase will have treatments given every other week for eight weeks for a total of four treatments. Two drugs, Adriamycin and Cytocin, are administered as well as hydration and anti-nausea medication. Prior to each of the four treatments, I have a blood test to make sure my white and red cells are at normal levels, and the day following, I receive a shot to boost my immunity levels to prevent infection. Say goodbye to the curly girl! I will lose all of my hair by the second treatment. You know what they say, "Bald is Beautiful!" Sister and I are heading to a couple places tomorrow to discuss some options and inquire about a stick-on ponytail that I can wear with my baseball hats! Phase two of the Chemo will start three weeks after phase one (End of September) and entails one treatment with a single medication given every week for twelve weeks. They tell me this phase is easier on me.

As Thursday approaches, I am scared, worried, and not sleeping well. Too much to stomach (Literally) at once. Phase one is very hard on the body, lots of side effects. In addition, my fourth treatment is scheduled for September 3rd, the first day of school! Won't that be a fun start! Trying hard to keep my head up high!

Please continue to pray for my physical, emotional, and mental strength... "The Lord will not give us more than we can handle..."

Soon, we will get some Pre-bald pictures uploaded!

Love to all!

Break Time!

Came home from Camping at Lake Easton to attend a doctor's appointment with Dr. Gould. He checked to make sure everything is continuing to heal. (He was pleased with the progress). I am pleased that the numbness and lack of feeling is confined to my chest and did not extend to my arms! Didn't get any information regarding future treatment from him but will tomorrow when we meet with Dr. Kasubhai(General Oncologist). Chances are, Chemo will begin last week in July. The best news of today, I was cleared to shower, exercise, and not wear my wraps 24/7. It's the little things that make the big things seem small!

Physically, I am stronger every day. I even won first place at a mini cribbage tournament with mom as my partner!

After tomorrow's appointment, I am heading back up to Easton for three more days of Vitamin D therapy. Come on SUN!

I continue to be amazed at the level of support I recieve on a daily basis. The cards, the flowers, meals, and inspirational text messages you, my friends and family send, keep me going! Dad had minor surgery today and hurried to get out of the recovery room to make it to my appointment. My family rocks!

YIIPPEEEEEE!!!!!!

Wow, today was a great day! After another rough night of restless sleep, I headed to the doctor's office. Aprehensively, I met with my wonderful nurse, Sherrie, who took those dreaded drains right out of me! Yes, it was a little painful as she unraveled 36inches of tubing out of my body (both sides), but in minutes I was hollarin that they were no more and quickly forgot about any pain! I fully understand the necessity to my healing, however, sleeping as been an obstacle course with those drains. I will see my doctor for a review of the pathology results and treatment plan.

In addition to my drain relief, I shopped for my first set of fake boobies! Choices, choices, choices.... To be a C or a double D.... That was the question!~ And.... Janet (The wonderful prosthetic lady) sewed breasts into two swimsuits for me to comfortably sunbathe at Lake Easton this coming week.... Who would've thought!

Heidi came for a visit with Sunshine bear and Jean brought a nice meal for us! She said, It's time I start eating "The Super Foods." (Quinioa, steak, sweet and sour chicken, wonderful salad and a brownie!) My aunt Judy sent batter bread and freezer jam with Mom. Susan sent lots of ginger snap cookies in the shape of breast cancer ribbons to settle my tummy, and lots of other BC stuff. Yum! Thank you girls!

Following a nice lunch out, two of my nurses, Tami and Brittany, chaperoned a field trip to the Mariner's game to visit all of my Safeco Field friends! So refreshing to see you all! (Would've been nice to get the win too.) Again, I was reminded of how blessed I am to have such wonderful, supportive friends cheering me on.

Finished the evening off with the best homemade cinnamon roll(With extra butter) ever! Thank you my Tamara!

TESTED!

Well, my strength and faith were truly tested last night! I was having one of those give up, give in nights. I couldn't settle my mind or my body. All of the "WHY" questions ran rampid through my head. Through my tears, I was reminded of these things: Although I have cancer, have to endure many hospital visits and procedures, have my faith tested continually, feel like crap many days, etc. etc., I also have life, parents who have relentlessly been by my side from the start, a bond with my identical twin that 90% of the world will never comprehend, a beautiful daughter who loves me and is counting on me, co-workers that help and support in everyway possible, friends and family that take time to send me messages daily telling me they are thinking about me and praying for me, and an opportunity to give to others less fortunate than me. In addition, I have our heavenly father who will never leave my side. Can you imagine for one minute someone who has to go through this alone? I was finally able to peacefully close my eyes and get some rest.

My words of encouragement for the day:
"I expect to pass through this life but once. If therefore, there be any kindness I can show, or any good thing I can do to any fellow being, let me do it now, and not deter or neglect it, as I shall not pass this way again." William Penn



It is a good day! Many friends are planning to visit today and I am feeling better and better everyday.

What's next?

Looking forward to get rid of my drains on Friday when I see the doctor. Then, we are headed to the mountains of Lake Easton for some fun, sun, and mean games of yahtzee, rummy, and train! Will be home on the 17th. Will try and blog as we get reception.

I cannot express enough my thanks and appreciation for the love, support, friendship and encouragement through the many flowers, cards, gifts, food, and most importantly the chocolate. I am so blessed and overwhelmed! THANK YOU all so much!

Im BACK!!!!!

After a very long couple of days, I am back on the blog! Thank you, my sis, for keeping all those who love and support me informed.....

Today, I have been off all medication for about sevventeen hours now. I can honestly say, that I don't miss those drugs! I would rather have pain than nausea, dizziness, hallucinations, and headaches! Tylenol has been enough to help me through the day. I had a great eight hours of sleep last night and ate my first complete meal this afternoon. (Mom has been great about the force feeding!) Love you Mom!

In addition to a bath/shower and a hair washing, I experienced a very healing session of cranial sacral work with my physical therapist! You rock Merianne! My lead team of caretakers is headed out for a break and my BFF is taking over for the next few days. Looking forward to what summer is all about..... Movies, hanging out in your pjs all day, sitting in the sun, laughing until it hurts, and eating all the things that are bad for you! (I will try to eat!)

Happy Birthday, Brother!

Post Surgery News!

Hi everyone! Today has been a great day! Teri visited the doctor today at about 3:15, and she got her staples removed. Doctor also gave us great news in that the tissue biopsys were all negative. The tumor that was removed from the right breast was approximately 8cm. about the size of an apple...all I can say is thank you, God for moving this process along from initial diagnosis to surgery to healing! The tumor was about 6 cm. when we learned of the diagnosis on June 11th! We will head back to the doctor on Friday to remove the drain tubes and check in with Dr. Gould again. Teri is on the agenda for the breast conference either this Thursday or Thursday in 2 weeks. The breast conference is a collaboration of her team of doctors which discuss her case and outline her treatment plan, so at the conclusion of that meeting we will know of the plan for chemo and radiation.

College friend, Jo came by for a short visit today...her sense of humor and charisma was truly inspirational. It is so good to see Teri laughing and smiling! Teri also wanted to thank Sherry Kerr, Angela McDonald, and Kim K for preparing food and bringing it to the house. It has been a lifesaver for her as well as her caretakers.

Teri is moving right along with minimal setbacks! There are definitely times that are tough or painful, but the good parts of the days at this point are out-weighing the bad which is so encouraging. I am so fortunate to share a special bond with her and feel as though sometimes I can shoulder some load...I am not even close to "feeling the same thing", but I can tell you how I feel when she smiles, AND when she winces with pain; and I do everything I can to see the smiles!

Many of you continue to ask about visiting or inquiring about what you can do. Visits are great! Teri loves it. As far as actually doing something...there will be time...there will be need...we as her caretakers and family members appreciate your willingness to help. We will be sure and summon your help as we need it...THANK YOU so much!Thank you also for all of your cards, letters, and flowers. Brittany did a wonderful job of showcasing these in this poster for her mom to look at.

Monday July 6

Hello Family and Friends,

This is another guest blogger on line today. The last 5 days have been a bag of mixed emotions. As I left Teri's late last night, I was feeling sad, mad, tired, hungry,heartbroken, frustrated and the range of all other emotions. To see my friend of 22 years in such a state has really affected me. I returned this morning with my mom, Bev, sister Tina and the 2 girls Reese and Tatum. To my wonderful surprise, there was Teri sitting up. Our friend and co worker, Ingrid, was here visiting with Teri, Tami and mom. Teri looked fabulous! Her eyes were bright and that great smile had returned. What a turn around from last night. Soon after friend Angela and her daughter, Ellie, stopped by to visit as well. An hour later me, Teri, Tami, Reese , Tatum and my mom went to lunch at Burger Express in Federal Way. Yes, she was up and moving and actually ate 3 bites of a a fabulous cheeseburger. Friend and co worker, Jordanne is now here visiting. She continues to amaze me. Keep it up Ter! Fight the good fight! We love you. Taylor

Taylor said it all, except I have to add a funny story...As Teri was visiting with Ingrid this morning, she decided to boil herself some eggs. Now keep in mind, Teri has been on a number of drugs and although we are very encouraged that Teri is increasing her level of activity and independent tasks, one should never CWUI (cook while under the influence). Teri no sooner sat back down on the couch and Ingrid flew across the living room because the kitchen started smoking. Teri had turned the wrong burner on and tried to fry the apple pie and burner cover! Rest assure that Ingrid saved the kitchen, the apple pie, and Teri's eggs. There were absolutely no injuries sustained in this incident!

On a serious note, I also am amazed at Teri's effort at recovery. There will be no holdin this girl back! She will attack the journey in front of her as if it were just another appointment in her day...it will be just another thing she needs to do. And she will get it done!!!

It is nice to see that all of you are reading and responding to the blog entries...It is a good way for us to communicate what is going on with Teri, and she absolutely loves to read the comments and responses. It is so motivating and encouraging for her, really keeps her going. Teri also wants you to know that she has had enjoyed her visitors, so if you would like to come by, you can call her 360-535-4308 to make sure she is not resting or at an appointment.

From a medical standpoint, Teri has an appointment with Dr. Gould tomorrow (7/7) where he will check everything out, possibly remove the drains, and hopefully have some tissue biopsy results. We might even discuss the sequence of events following staple, suture removal including the chemotherapy/radiation schedule.

Until tomorrow, continue thoughts, prayers, visits, etc.

Hi Friends and Followers

It is Sunday afternoon, and we are home with Teri. She is doing well. It was a bit of a tough early morning whereas Teri experienced some nausea and vomiting and suffered from a severe headache. After talking to Doctor Gould and changing some medications, Teri improved greatly.

She continued to feel better after being pampered with a bath, pedicure, hair treatment and lunch. Mom has been here and is running to retrieve meds from the pharmacy, Brother-in-law, Joey has made a grocery run, and changed the shower head to make bathing easier. Brittany has been very helpful in the kitchen, cooking for Mom and the rest of the caregivers.

Teri continues to amaze me! She has already started therapy by folding a load of clothes, and spider walking her arms on the wall. WOW!

Saturday...Happy 4th of July

Today Teri got to go home. Even though it's nice to have the security of medical staff so readily available, nothin can replace the comfort of home and your own bed! The night was pretty good, I stayed overnight with Teri and did everything I could to keep from climbing up in her bed next to her. Funny how a twin bed can be plenty big enough when you're little and too small when you're big.

At home, we have been taking turns with tasks like milking her drain tubes, changing her dressings, and keeping track of all of her medications. She sat outside and got a little bit of sunshine and got to visit with neighbor, Max.

Later in the evening, I left to get some more clothes, Mom and Dad went home for the night, so TJ took the overnight duty. Brittney will of course be there to help also. Friend and coworker, Carmen (a breast cancer survivor)came for a visit too.

The next step from here is to heal her wounds and rest to get stronger. Teri will see Dr. Gould on Tuesday, July 7th. At that time he will hopefully take the drains out and then schedule an appointment to remove the staples from the incisions.

Mentally, Teri is TOUGH! Her bravery amazes me! She will still need some time to recognize the major change to her body, but she will remain strong and understand that the changes are necessary for her to fight this cancer.

Thanks for all of your visits, calls, and words of encouragement! Teri is so grateful to be surrounded by such wonderful people!

Friday Evening 7/3/09 7:00pm

Teri has had an okay day considering the circumstances...Erin, Merianne, Stacie, and little supporters have come to visit today and brought lots of encouragement. Stacie gave Teri a foot massage which was lovely!

Doctor Gould came in and changed the dressings and talked to us about when Teri could go home...which looks like tomorrow.

Cindy, TJ, Britt, M&D and I (sister)have been here all day keeping each other company as well as watching over our angel!

Teri was able to get up today and walk to the room doorway...doesn't seem like much, but it was huge for her after the last couple of days! I can tell that Teri is ready and eager to lead this train! What an inspiration!

The Next Step

It's Thurs. morning, one day after surgery. Teri had a pretty good night resting off and on until about 3:30 this morning. As she felt up to trying to get out of bed, but it may of been too much too soon. Her blood pressure dropped, and she got really dizzy and faint. The result was she wasn't able to have her morphine drip for about 4 hours after the episode which of course caused her to have more pain.

Now it is about 10:00 and she seems to be back on track, resting somewhat comfortablly. Not sure when the doctor will be in this morning, but I am not anticipating any different news than we had last night.

We will see how the day goes and begin planning for her to go home.

11:10 PM Thurs. July 2, 2009

I am back at Teri's house and can't seem to fall asleep yet, whereas I am missing her lots! Mom is staying over night at the hospital, so Dad, Brittany and I are holdin down the fort. Sacrifice for the parents to be here not sleeping in their own beds, but it's nothing compared to what Sister is enduring. So because I can't sleep, I am going to blog a little bit and add some more to the updates given earlier.

Teri came out of recovery at about 7:00, and it was tough! She was very pale, shaking like a leaf, and very drugged with pain meds and anti-nausea meds. They got her situated in a room downstairs, and she slowly began improving a little at a time. She had lots of visitors to help her along the way. She even began joking and reminiscing at one point with college friends, Jo and TJ. By the time many of us left, Teri was awake, drinking lots of water and asking for a cheeseburger! Good signs for sure!

I know many of you will be interested in visiting Teri and as you know, she appreciates everyone's efforts to see her and support her. Right now it looks like she will stay at ST. Francis until Friday evening/night, provided that she is managing her pain with meds that can be given at home. Hopefully she will be showing some interest in going home herself, but we certainly don't want to rush things.

As we continue to support her first, also please remember to support each other. The past 3 weeks have been a whirlwind for sure and all of us have needed different levels of support at different times. Most important is Teri, and we need to take care of each other, so we can take care of her. Not sure if I said what I meant to say, but hopefully you get my drift.

Well, I am feeling a little incompetent right now because Teri is always so good at topping off her news with inspirational words or sayings, and I am dumbfounded! Maybe it's because I am overwhelmed at the day's events, but all I can come up with is "faith can move mountains" and the one we are about to move is BIG! Continue your prayers and words of encouragement, and we'll be on the other side in no time.

Surgery Complete!

Surgery is over...Doctor Gould said that Teri did great! But then again that is our Teri...we expected nothing less and of course she gave 110%. At this point, he even said the surgery produced nice, symmetrical results. He also said that Teri has 2 drains on each side, lots of sutures, lots of staples, lots of bandage, and I am sure lots of discomfort and pain...the journey just turned towards a very STEEP hill, so hang on here we go; now we step up and shoulder the load.

Let's Celebrate!

Hurray, Hurray!!! Celebration is in order...Teri is almost out of surgery. The time is 5:00 and it has been one long day...thank God that Teri could spend most of it in the Bahamas or some other tropical place snoozin! The best news is that the Sentinel Node biopsys on both sides yielded negative results....YAH!

It will probably be another hour or so before we can be with Teri again, but we are relieved that this part is coming to a close...

Pray, pray, pray!

Will update later tonight...

Surgery Day!

Well here we are...Mom, Dad, Britt, TJ, and sister (now, author) at St. Francis...Teri went into surgery at about 11:45...about an hour and a half behind schedule...Teri was and is starving. Team of doctors continues to amaze us with their accomodations and willingness to update us on Teri. We expect an update about once every hour or so, and will let all of our friends and loved ones know as we know...

Again, we appreciate ongoing support through your love and prayers!

Farewell my girls!

Had a great time today at the farewell party. I work with the most amazing, supportive, inspirational, and encouraging people! Thank you all for coming and thank you for your proposal, Katie! :)

In all honesty, I am scared as hell! I currently have a rock the size of Mount Rainier in the middle of my gut! Have no idea when I will fall asleep or if I will fall asleep. My sis is right by my side tonight so hopefully that will be soon.

"I Can do this!" From a friend, I got this advice today, "I only have to be brave for the next ten minutes..... I only have to be brave for the next ten minutes..." Before you know you are over the next ten minutes!

From my friend and BC survivor, Carmen, these are the words from my book of Whispered Words of Encouragement: If you can learn to laugh in spite of the circumstances that surround you, you will enrich others, enrich yourself, and more than that, you will last! So... my sis and I laughed and laughed as we used the self-timer on the camera to take photos of Ethel, Lucy, Flopsy, and Mopsy!

Thank you again, all of you; My family, My friends, My co-workers, My VB team and parents, for your continued love, encouragement, friendship, gifts, cards, food, and SUPPORT! I love all of you!

No turning back!

Pre-op is complete! Met with a wonderful lady today that set me all up with the necessary materials for post mast. Never did I have any idea!

One of my good friends always says, "Bring it!" Here we go.

The Power Of God's word and Prayer!

RCC, Pastor Brett Hollis, and my church family, prayed together and annointed me with oil on Sunday morning. It's always so amazing to me that no matter how regularly you attend church (Or don't attend), the weekly sermon is personally addressed to you! The scriptures that are really guiding my strength are from this week's sermon: Phillipians 4:6-8, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God that transcends all understanding will guard your heart and your minds. Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things..." What a peace I have been able to attain over the last two days and will continue to thirst for!

In addition to prayer, I was blessed by those who came to share their stories, show encouragement, and continue to offer to help.... Brenda Myers and Judy Terry. Thank you!


Reese's dance recital really reminded me of how important little ones are to our lives! She was so cute!

Today, a great friend gave me a massage and I received my weekly dose of reflexology! Thank you ladies and thank the Lord for the Eastern world of natural health!

Tomorrow, I will see Dr. Gould for my pre-op appointment to finalize my plans for surgery. I will also receive my tests results from the BRAC -1 and 2 analysis to determine my possible genes for Ovarian cancer.

There are four days until surgery. I met with my radiation oncologist and he helped to confirm that my most favorable chances with this type of cancer is to have a bilateral mastectomy. So, next Thursday is the day. Check in at 6:30 am and will head home some time within the following two days.

Emotions have really run the gammet over the last couple of days... for the most part, I am upbeat and positive and expect the best, but some days have been hard. Again, I am so thankful for friends, family and all those who show endless support and encouragement.

PSVBC rocks! The party was fun and I was thrilled to see my girls, John, and all those who we have had the opportunity to work with through this past season! Thank you!

For those of you interested in personally emailing me, you can do so at terituttle@gmail.com.

Thank you all for you continued support, prayer, encouragement and friendship. Without you all, this journey would be so difficult!

A gentleman by the name of Robert Cushing said, " If I advance, follow me. If I stop, push me, if I fall, Inspire me! This sums it up for me!

Yesterday, June 23, I met with my plastic surgeon, Dr. Stridde. We spent quite a bit of time reviewing all of my options for breast reconstruction following my surgery. That process won't even begin until after both the chemotherapy and the radiation are complete. (Looking at probably April or May of this next school year. Learned a lot and continue to be inundated with information. Decisions regarding reconstruction don't have to made until much later.

I will meet my final team member, Dr. Badiozamani, my radiation oncologist, tomorrow afternoon.

In addition, all of my team members will meet for a final conference Thurs. to finalize my treatment plan. They have all made me feel very confident that I am in good hands.

http://www.side-out.org/news-events/dig_pink/

This is the website for the Dig Pink Volleyball matches that are held around the US to support breast cancer. There will be a match at my sister's High School (South Kitsap High School) on October 21st at 7:00pm. The T-shirts will cost 5.00 and that is your ticket into the gym. The goal is to get 1000 people in pink into the gym for this event. Your support is greatly appreciated.

The Beginning: June 11th, 2009 @ approximately 10:30 am, and confirmed at 4:30 pm, I was diagnosed with Invasive Lobular Carcinoma, AKA, Breast Cancer! I would soon find out I would be spending my summer vacation in and out of the St. Francis Women's Health Center. If there is anything good to say about timing, it's that I have been blessed with a teaching job and have ten weeks to concentrate on my journey to survival! Mom, Dad, twin, Daughter Brittany and best friend were with me from the start.



Currently: The past two weeks have been spent in and out of appointments to get me acquainted with all the members of my team. So far, all have been honest, helpful, up-front and have treated me as though I am the only woman on the planet with this disease!



By the way ladies, if you need Mammos, the Carol Milguard Center in Tacoma ROCKS!



Next Up: Surgery is scheduled for July 2nd at St. Francis Hospital by Dr. Richard Gould. At the time of surgery, I will have a mastectomy to remove the right breast. ( The tumor caused by the cancer is too large for a lumpectomy). Following surgery, I will undergo 3 to 6 months of chemotherapy, then 3-6 weeks of radiation. Reconstruction will occur after treatment.



PRAY, PRAY, PRAY, that God will take this horrifying disease from my body! Thank you all for your support!